Goodbye cruel online world...

I was all set for a good finish when this devastating turn card hit me.

PokerStars Game #23110149526: Tournament #127000824, $50+$5 Hold'em No Limit - Level XI (400/800) - 2008/12/21 0:17:33 ET
Table '127000824 18' 9-max Seat #7 is the button
Seat 1: Sextantinn (20230 in chips)
Seat 2: Seb-musashi (2753 in chips) is sitting out
Seat 3: SirSwish6 (8335 in chips)
Seat 4: BigDennys (8535 in chips)
Seat 5: ShadowCat (13272 in chips)
Seat 6: Illinifan10 (15575 in chips)
Seat 7: BammBamm (11377 in chips)
Seat 8: bd3109 (15264 in chips)
Seat 9: Adog26 (8641 in chips)
Sextantinn: posts the ante 75
Seb-musashi: posts the ante 75
SirSwish6: posts the ante 75
BigDennys: posts the ante 75
ShadowCat: posts the ante 75
Illinifan10: posts the ante 75
BammBamm: posts the ante 75
bd3109: posts the ante 75
Adog26: posts the ante 75
bd3109: posts small blind 400
Adog26: posts big blind 800
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Illinifan10 [Kd Ah]
Sextantinn: folds
Seb-musashi: folds
SirSwish6: folds
BigDennys: folds
ShadowCat: folds
Illinifan10: raises 1200 to 2000
BammBamm: folds
bd3109: raises 4000 to 6000
Adog26: folds
Illinifan10: raises 9500 to 15500 and is all-in
bd3109: calls 9189 and is all-in
Uncalled bet (311) returned to Illinifan10
*** FLOP *** [Ts 9c 5d]
*** TURN *** [Ts 9c 5d] [8s]
*** RIVER *** [Ts 9c 5d 8s] [5c]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
bd3109: shows [Jd 8d] (two pair, Eights and Fives)
Illinifan10: shows [Kd Ah] (a pair of Fives)
bd3109 collected 31853 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 31853 | Rake 0
Board [Ts 9c 5d 8s 5c]
Seat 1: Sextantinn folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 2: Seb-musashi folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 3: SirSwish6 folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 4: BigDennys folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 5: ShadowCat folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 6: Illinifan10 showed [Kd Ah] and lost with a pair of Fives
Seat 7: BammBamm (button) folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 8: bd3109 (small blind) showed [Jd 8d] and won (31853) with two pair, Eights and Fives
Seat 9: Adog26 (big blind) folded before Flop

How could I have played it any better? Nope, I couldn't. As usual. So I guess I'm out for a few months, years, whatever. I'll post my live results on here once in a while. Thanks to anyone who has read my blog.

I could be done online...

I just can't seem to break this bad slump and it's making me almost sick. I just stare at my screen in disbelief as another big pot gets pushed away to the donkey who should have never been in the pot. I firmly believe that I statistically run worse than the average player. I know everyone will tell me this is not true but I watch it happen time and time again. Sure, I've won a few big tournaments but everyone has to have a bone thrown to them sometimes. It's just that I have never gone on a good run ever in my life. I've ran good for a tourney, or a cash game session, but that is it. I've never ran good for more than one day in a row. I know I have a lot of skill, more than most that I play with. I just can't beat the variance. So with that said, tonight I am playing in four tourneys. The 30k, 10k, 40k, and the 40k $3 rebuy, and if my account has less than 1k in it when the night is done I will be taking all my money offline. There is a new casino open close to where I live and I will go there to rebuild my bankroll playing the 1/2NL game. If I do well in that game over a period of time I will re-deposit money online. I will not be depositing on pokerstars anymore. I will be playing on full tilt as I seem to do better there. So I will give the verdict later tonight.

Somebody kill me!!

Yikes! I continue the worst run of my life playing cash games. The combination of beats, coolers, and bad plays have left me in a state of shock. I'm down $2100 in the last couple weeks. I don't feel I'm playing too bad, I'm just stuck in a bad downswing. But, what goes down MUST come up sometime. So, I will continue to grind it out until I get out of this bad swing. As for now I will be putting in less volume and playing a few more tournaments and just see what happens. I'm playing the 40k gtd and the $3 rebuy tonight. I will be tracking my progress at the beginning of each hour in this blog just to see what happens.......it worked last time!!

7:00pm: Both tourneys just started and of course I don't know anyone. More than likely they are all weak players. So I'll just try to play small pots and get it in with my big hands. GL me!

8:00pm: Not much worth noting. Haven't picked up too many hands yet. I've tripled my stack in the $3R and I have a little less than my starting stack in the 40k. The table in the 40k is super juicy so I really hope I get a hand.

9:44pm: So as usual the table donkey who plays 80% of his hands picks up Aces when I shove my jacks on him. So fucking typical of how I've been running lately. Out of the 40k :(. Out of the $3R 99 is no good on a flop of 9 J 2. JJ of course. I'm really about to take all my money offline and say fuck it. Go and play at the casino against the super donkeys. Whatever.

gross....

Been running pretty horrible. I'm still making money, just not nearly as much as I should be. I've been very patient and I know a huge upswing is on the way. It's only a matter of time. I need to start doing a little more review of my play to determine where I'm leaking money. I think when I hit 50k hands I will have a big review session and then adjust my game accordingly. On a side note, I will be playing the Sunday Million this weekend so hopefully I can get a little, if not a big, boost to my bankroll.

Sunday update

I have been absolutely crushing 50NL and now I'm rolled for 100NL. So tuesday I will start playing at the higher limit. I've played there and had success before and I feel I am a much better player now. I know there isn't much difference in skill between 50 and 100, the players will be a little tighter and there will be more regulars. I don't see this being too much to handle for me. The thing is, I've been doing very well lately without running overly well (with the exception of last night) and I know I can be making a lot more money in the bigger games. Not too much of an update but its something. I'm going to try to write up an article of what I feel makes a good cash game player sometime in the near future. Mainly because I just want something to refer back to when I get in a rut or a bad run. So we shall see what this next week will bring at 100NL. GL me.

Alot of change

Well once again I have fallen behind in updating my blog. I've had a lot of things going on lately in real life and in poker. Since this is a poker blog I will stay away from the real life stuff. I have basically given up on MTTs for now because of time restrictions and I just hate the variance of the damn things. So I have started playing all cash games. This is my strongest area of poker, and I'm really going to focus all of my poker energy on it. I have been basically crushing 50NL this past week. I've been playing well and running about average. With the exception of last night I've been making about 2 buy-ins a day. I'm playing with about 50 buy-ins and hopefully I will be back into 100NL within the month. Before I took all my money off I was winning that limit pretty regularly. My goal is to be playing 200NL by March. Along with the cash games I will be using my FPP from stars to try and satty into the PCA. So that's where I'm at as of right now.

On a side note, I will be updating this blog every sunday from here on out. This should prove to be a challenge.

OMG....horrible night

Well I've been playing quite a bit lately without any good results. This always seems to happen to me after a big win. I go on yet another bad run. I'm pretty convinced my whole life is a downswing. I guess I should mention that I'm playing lights out great poker. I've never had more confidence in my game. I just can't seem to win the big coinflips and the key pots that take me deep into the tourney. But whatever. Here is a just a sample of how my night went.

http://www.pokerxfactor.com/SH160134/5154_20080924_210625.txt

Yea, I really could not have played this hand any better. What does this guy think my range is here to push his huge reraise. Seriously, would I really be holding AQ, or JJ? NOOOO, the only hand that he is realistically racing with here is QQ which still makes him a big underdog. Oh well, these are the players that make me the most money.

Here is another gem. Kings were not good to me tonight.

http://www.pokerxfactor.com/SH160135/5154_20080924_212840


Here is the link to my win in the 30k a couple mondays ago:

http://www.pokerxfactor.com/HH154549/5154_20080916_191902.txt

It's long but I played really well so if you have the time to watch it I would love to discuss some hands.